Yeah, haven't been able to upload anything due to the fact that my scanner isn't set up and I haven't been able to find the stuff that goes to it. I want to put up some pics sooo bad, I haven't been able to upload anything since July, that sucks balls!

Anyways, life.
If I had put up a journal everyday starting about 4 weeks ago, each one would've probably said: "I want to die." About two weeks ago was when I started feeling less crappy. A week ago, even less. Now? Still a little bad but I no longer spend my spare time crying and wondering about what could have been. So yay, I survived my first heartbreak! At least I know it's possible. It's hard sometimes to look on my profile and see all the love messages that are there, I should probably delete those but I'm afraid I'd be tempted to read through them, and then of course I would get sad again. It took a while to get used to not getting any phone calls or love notes or getting to see him everyday like I used to.

But I've recovered like 95%, and instead of crying over the past, I'm starting to look more to the future, shady as it seems, seeing as I'm kind of confused lately about what it is that I truly want right now. But nonetheless, still looking forward to it. A couple of you guys helped me out, and thanks for that.

I went paintballing for the first time today with my friends Donnie, Taylor, Trevor, PJ, and Rocky. It was pretty sweet. At first I was a little hesitant cuz hey, I heard it hurts to get hit with paintballs lol. But finally I loosened up and the first shot someone got on me was a fucking headshot too, lol. Fucking OW. I got shot 3 times right on the top of the head where there was no protection and now I have a green streak through my hair. Got shot once in the hip, like 5 times on my left knee, once in the neck, twice on my un-gloved hands, and a couple times in the feet.
Afterwards we went to El Pollo Loco and just chilled, talked about things like how they wanna jump my ex and about UFest and all the cool stuff that went down today. On the ride home we had the windows rolled down and we screamed the whole way and scared the shit our of the pedestrians, haha. I haven't been home all day and I have so much homework...lol.

It's been a while since I updated here, and boyy, have some things changed.

First of all, I am no longer owner of ~Dancing-Smiley, as we broke up recently. But he's still like my best friend and I really don't know what's going on with the story we started, because the two main characters who are married were sort of based off of him and me. It's his call, really. But we haven't worked on the story in a long ass time anyways so it prolly was considered over a long time ago.

I also found a new boyfriend, just today, might I add. But I really don't know how things are going to work between us so I won't dwell on the subject. All I can say is we had our first date today and it was hella satisfying. (:

The games against Tempe High are Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. I kinda decided that I won't get involved because the kids at that school are especially rowdy and I'm not looking to get shot. No, seriously. Our mascot has to wear a bulletproof vest, and my band director told us to watch out for glass bottles this week. So yeah, they're gonna try to kill us. Best not make them mad.

And that's all I really have to say. Wow...I need to start drawing again.

Ok, so...the high school I go to and the high school that we're rivals with, Tempe High, have hated each other for as long as I can remember. Our football game against them is later this month, and we know that something is gonna go down. I already know of a couple of stories of the past.

A couple of years ago (during an away game, where we were at Tempe High), Tempe High's students and football team and marching band were starting trash with my school, so in order to get out safely the boys had to surround the girls, and the McClintock security had to surround the boys, and they had to shuffle out of there that way. Since then, our school has always had to bring security because the other school hates us so much. Jealous bitchesss. (:
To get back at THS, the next year, the McClintock band, after the game, blocked off Tempe High's band room so the band couldn't get in. I don't really remember what happened after that because I wasn't there, but I bet there was some fighting.

So this year, we wanna find a way to get under their skin. xD Like one of my friends said, "To survive in the ghetto you gotta be ghetto!" :3 So if anyone has any ideas about what we can do let me know and we'll see how it goes! XD

Heh, it's pretty fun. Even though during the week I find myself so busy that sometimes I can't even find time to breathe. Right now I'm home for about an hour then I have to go back to school for marching band rehearsal! Whoo-hoo! But even though it's tiring and sometimes I wish I could be un-busy for once, it helps. Because I find that when I'm alone, I get to thinking about things. And when I think about things, I tend to get depressed sometimes. So even though I have almost no free time anymore, it keeps me from thinking, and I love that.